2021

 

I wanted to make you fall for me, fall for a guy who will take you to the museums, and parks, and monuments, and kiss you in every beautiful place, so that you can never go back to them without tasting me like blood in your mouth. But you left and now I understand why storms are named after people. 8 billion hearts in this empty world but I fell for the one that didn’t beat for me. It wasn’t a dream because if it was a dream, I will die to keep dreaming forever. Like two comets, we could not avoid each other. We collied in one beautiful disaster. Even if it’s a thousand miles, I can still see your smile. I do write things to you but they’re just staying with me now. When I hear the phone ring I get a rush of hope it’s you, but for now I’ll tell the moon the things I wish you could hear. In another universe we sit across each other at the kitchen table and go over the grocery list. I should have hugged you tighter and longer the last time I saw you. No more. My blood is cold and my heart is petrified. My dreams are lucid and sometimes I see you in them. You are just there, not talking. Looking. Please go away.